Not every book is for every reader. By the end I was left unsure of how I felt about what I had read. While the writing was beautiful and descriptive and the setting was done perfectly, the nostalgia of the 80s could be felt throughout the book, the story felt more like a conglomeration of moments, memories, ramblings and magazine quizzes than a cohesive narrative. It felt repetitive at times, hard to follow (especially with switching between character names and nicknames) and it took me while to get through despite its length. But the story was also thought provoking and tackled complex issues like sexual abuse and and left me thinking about it long after I finished. Overall it was a 3.75 ⭐Thank you to NetGalley, the publisher Pantheon, and the author, Nina McConigley, for this eARC