Well, this left the top of my brain smooth to say the least. The first three words that came to mind when I finished this were "What the fuck?" I don't know. I like this book but on the other hand, I don't know what to feel about it, but that's not in a bad way. 

Literally I do like this book and it's not just because I was a competitive swimmer (a queer one) and the fact this takes place in Pittsburgh/Western PA, I think I can (in some ways) relate to Ren. At least when I was a teenager. Just the way that extracurriculars can take over your life and be your whole world and exhaust you is real. Wanting to change yourself or make yourself go through pain in order to release pressure is something that a lot of people go through whether they want to admit it or not. 

To be honest, I did find Ren and Cathy to be insufferable, but I found them to be (in a way) reflections of queer teen girls like me. I also think that Coach Jim should be removed from the swim team and put in jail. Also everyone in this book needs therapy but I believe that is just a symptom of being from Western PA. Still, in the end, I found this to be an interesting read.