Incredible audiobook! I gave this 4 stars initially, but had to bump it to 5 because I have not stopped thinking about this book since finishing. I spent a two and a half hour car ride in silence after finishing and just let myself think about this book and /feel/. Elliot is such a frustrating yet relatable disaster bisexual main character. This book follows his life from ages 14-18 (if memory serves), and it charts his rough non-relationship with his father and tenuous friendship dynamics made all the more difficult by the fact that Elliot believes to the very core of his being that he does not deserve to be loved. I cannot recommend this book enough for those who feel worthless and unloved--see Elliot, and see yourself, and through that lens, you might be able to see that people are often quite determined to love you, no matter what you do to stop them in an effort to protect the heart you think cannot be cared for.