I WILL NEVER RECOVER. 

From all the deaths (*cough HASTRA, LENOS, HOLLAND WHYYYYY)),

the battles, the miserable life of Holland, shadow kings, Londons, battles, and this mesmerizing world that VE Schwab has created. 
I feel so empty, so hollow. But also, filled by happiness and sadness and love and hzisjfkdkxk
In a week (or less i really don't know anymore haha), this trilogy changed MY ENTIRE LIFE.
I am absolutely speechless.
I have no words to describe what I have felt while reading these books.
V.E. Schwab, thank you for writing this (inserts fancy adjective for fantastic, amazing) trilogy. 
I am a mess now, and I don't know what to do with my life. Because of words. Of books. And that is magical to me.
This is not making any sense as my head is still numb from all that reading and crying and shipping. 
i have honestly no idea what to write next so i guess i will just write down whatever comes to min, without any structure/organisation, just like my brain right now
I LOVE HOLLAND, AND HE REMINDS ME A LOT OF SNAPE (CHARCOAL BLACK HAIR, RASPY VOICE, UNREADABLE FACE, TRAGIC PAST, I MEAN)
ALSO HE IS 37 WHAT THE FUCK 
KELL MARESH I LOVE HIM
RHY AND ALUCARD EMERY HOLY SHIT
HASTRA WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE??????????? WHY
LENOS AS WELL THIS IS TORTURE
ALUCARD SOLD FOUR EARS OF HIS LIFE TO BUY A MIRROR TO SHOW RHY WHY HE LEFT AAAAA
KELL'S COAT IS SO COOL 
SPEAKING OF WHICH, I DEMAND HIS BACKSTORY
ALUCARD AND KELL BICKERING
THE ANTARI BLOCK-CHAPTER THINGY WAS SO FUCKING COOL I MEAN THE WHOLE BINDING RINGS//SYNC//FIGHT OHMYGODICANT'
TIERAN HAS SARCASM BURIED SOMEWHERE IN HIS BONES 
KING MAXIM WAS QUITE STUPID
ACTUALLT A LOT OF THE CHARACTERS MADE VERY STUPID DECISIONS I WAS ASHAMED MYSELF
THIS NASI GIRL HM

VERIDICT: VE SCHWAB IS A CLEVER, COLD BLOODED MONSTER WHO DESTROYED US READERS, AND I HAVE F E E L I N G S 



ONE MORE HOLLAND APPRECIATION MOMENT BECAUSE SANCT HE FUCKING DESERVES IT
HOLLANDDDDDDD WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY


S T O P F U C K I N G W I T H T H E S H I P I LAUGHED SO MUCH


OKAY I WILL STOP


anoshe yall