I have such strong emotions reading In The Company Of Shadows. Every time.
This book has over 1000 pages and I couldn't put it down.
Hsin Vega and Boyd Beaulieu have ripped my heart out and run away with it.

These trained spies and assassins are so complex and developed in ways that can be so difficult to read sometimes. Their lives are tough, and it was awful to see that I was even convinced that distance between them would be a good idea. They feel so much for each other. And I feel so much for them. It was difficult to read so much of what was going on inside a mentally ill "disturbed-monstrous assassin who doesn't care" when clearly... he does.
The world they're in is awful for them but brilliantly and gradually developed for us. It continues to be intriguing even as new elements are added in every book.

Do I wish the authors had made a director's cut like they had for the first book? yeah. probably. It was a long book. Lots of internal monologues, thinking about stuff. But getting inside their heads so much is also what makes us care about them on such an outstanding level.

I was so worried about them, still continue to be. Hopefully, after I've recovered my heart and emotions from this super long and heavy book, I'll continue on with the series and all will be good. Fingers crossed.