I don’t think I’ve quite had a reaction to a book like this. 

It was tense and frustrating and then it ends and you want to throw it against the wall in rage— “the unfairness!”—and also weep. 

I did burst into tears for like ten minutes. 

Good god. 
 Like what is a utopia/dystopia? (The two-sided coin of both)

What it means to know (experience vs knowledge shared with you) and the nature of humanity—how there are common feelings and knowledges that we inherently know even in a different situation—like love and desire and curiosity. 

oh no I’m crying again.