Going into this expected an intense and heartbreaking read a book that I have to take breaks from just because the topic is distressing. This is exactly what I got.

An early chapter/part of a chapter in the POV of a short got me wondering. What was the motive behind this? Why did he target a school? Where so many innocent children will be affected.

I don't want to say this was easy to get into since it's such a distressing story. But I found myself not wanting to put it down. I needed to know how many survived. I needed to know why this was happening.

I soon had some ideas of at least one of the shooters involved. Just something about how he was spoken about just wasn't right. The more we learnt the more it made sense for this character to be involved. I ended up being right.

Overall this book was intense. At times I felt like I needed a break. Just a moment to breathe again. But at the same time I wanted to carry on reading to know how it ends.

By the end I was holding back tears. I never cry at books but this got to me. At one point I felt like for a moment to stopped breathing. My heart hurt knowing this is a reality way too often.