WOW wow wow. where was this when i was like 15 because i needed something like this :( i loved it so much.

felix as a main character was such an interesting experience because he felt so real to me. like he made mistakes and said things he may not have said but he was also regretful when he did something wrong, the way he reacted to different things that happened to him felt so authentic and difficult. felix feels like a real person and i dunno if that's because i see some of myself in him and understood his thinking patterns so vividly, or what, but it really hit different.

i've only read on other kacen callender book, which was [b:This Is Kind of an Epic Love Story|44557873|This Is Kind of an Epic Love Story|Kacen Callender|https://i.gr-assets.com/images/S/compressed.photo.goodreads.com/books/1568261407l/44557873._SY75_.jpg|57834123], and i remember loving the way they wrote about human emotions in that story, and it translates so easily in here as well. they have this way of inner dialogue, that makes you feel what the character is feeling in that moment; they have that locked DOWN.

can i also mention how wonderful the side characters were? i felt like every one of them was developed in some sort of way, even the "antagonists", like marisol and the one who had done the gallery and was sending felix the instagram messages. they felt fleshed out, and their viewpoints and ignorance was realistic and infuriating.

i don't tend to like main characters of stories, i usually love the side characters the most and much more than the protagonist, but i love felix wholeheartedly. ezra is definitely my favourite, i feel like the complexity of his privilege and the situations he's put in, how he feels around that, really made me empathize with him.

ugh all in all, kacen callender really out here writing the best books! a win for us!