I don't really know what to think of this book. The main character, Voya, was fun but also annoying? I understand her whole thing was that she can't make a decision for herself at all and overthinks them, but there were times it got to a point where I just wanted to smack her. When her Calling comes and she has to make a decision as to whether or not to complete it, I was so annoyed because I didn't understand how she felt like there was a choice at all. Of course you should accept it and try. You either have "don't accept it and have a bad outcome" or "accept and you'll have a bad outcome if you fail or a good one if you pass." Like...there's the option for passing, so do it? This caused the pacing for me to go on reaaaalllly slowly. 

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the fact her Calling said to destroy her first love and Voya and the family immediately thought romantic love annoyed me so much. Like...the whole twist at the end of it being her choice of how to interpret it, meaning "first love" could be either her first romantic love or platonic/familial, was something I guessed/knew from the beginning? It wasn't that hard a jump to think that. And wasn't there even a point at the beginning that a family member is like "maybe first love could mean something else?" and everyone dismisses it and decides to accept that everything sucks and wallows in it.

Other than that, I enjoyed the magical aspect of this world and how it works. It being set in the future was really interesting and added a lot of really cool elements. This gave me Encanto-vibes of big family with magic powers and a girl who doesn't have one (yet) and just wants to be there for the family. I also dig the lgbtqiap+ acceptance and representation.

So overall, a 3.5 because it wasn't awful, but there were things I think could have been tidied up.