There are so many trigger warnings for this book that I could not possibly list them all. However, the biggest for me were sexual abuse, and pedophilia.

At the recommendation of nearly everyone in the book community I picked the audiobook. I am not sure how I feel about performance audiobooks. However, it was extremely well produced and well narrated.

The book itself was both gripping and hard to read. The story was about Sadie, a big sister who raised her little sister, that was murdered at the age of 13. At the request of her adopted Grandmother, a reporter began a search for Sadie when she then went missing. The story was turned into a podcast. The narration is half in Sadie's voice and half the podcast.

The characters were a bit too relatable. The story a bit to vivid. The writing was excellent, but for the topic it made it hard to continue with at times. I continued because I needed to see how the story ended. I needed to see Sadie's completion. In a way I did. In another way I was completely let down. The story was not complete, because I could see a next step.

I understand, I think, where the author was going with the ending. I just do not think that is succeeded. Instead I was just left frustrated and let down. Ultimately, I am glad that I did read it.

I also have difficulty calling this book YA. I would not put on the audiobook when my teenagers were in the car. Between the theme and the language it was too much. It seemed more like an adult book with a young adult character.