As I finished the final page of this book, after being hooked from the very beginning, I closed my eyes and tried to put into words how this book made me feel. There was pure happiness for the ending but getting their was difficult and tugged at my emotions, making my heart hurt for Ryan and his struggles but also feeling exasperated at the same time.

Yes, Ryan is fully aware of his life choices and all the bad decisions he continues to make. He’s aware of the detrimental effect the people he has surrounded himself with have on his continued substance and alcohol abuse. He carries with him the pain from a literally unreal childhood that left him ill prepared for when it was all gone and full of anger towards the person he felt made him lose it all.

Circumstances have Ryan making the serious effort to be the man he wants to be and to be with the man he wants to be with. He knows it won’t be easy but is at last willing to make the effort and for that I just wanted to give him a big squishy hug. I loved the journey of Ryan’s story and cannot recommend it highly enough.